It's been a long long time since i last blogged

Holidays are coming to an end. Lots of things happened during this 3 months. Always enjoyed my summer holidays working and catching up with friends. Lots to blog too but many a times, i find myself too tired to blog about it. Things that I hope that I can find time to blog about:

1) Melissa - how we manage to spend quality time together so often (great!)

2) Catching up and making time for kayaking kakis

3) The special day with mel (can read from mel's blog)

4) Always wanted to blog about my mom, the selfless one.

5) The future - what has it has in store for me

6) My time in AD

My stint with AD may be coming to an end pretty soon. These 3 months of work allow me to find out more about myself, my capabilities and so much of my weaknesses and ignorance towards the working world. At the same time, could not find the drive to push myself further. Some days are just getting things done for the sake of do that. Not much of the motivation in there. I hate myself for that for I know that this is not YK. Or am I living in my world of self deception. Perhaps this is me and I have to recognise the fact that work may not be what I envisioned it to be initially. No doubt, I have learnt a great deal from colin, nicole and RX. They are very patient with me and I enjoyed the closeness of working together. The flip side of a small company requires everyone to be multi tasked, maybe at the expense of losing focus. Or rather this is how I see it. I am lost while working on some of the assignments and detest that feeling. But what have i done to curb that? perhaps nothing but just mediocre performance. That sux.

That sux but I believe that is part and parcel of learning through experience. As I always preached, the more shit I endure now, the more I reap later. And I stand firm to that mantra.

Scouting has in one way or another prepared me for this. These first 7 months aint the easiest of the months. Weekends were burnt working and weekdays were spent catching up on the work. I am amazed how I actually gone through this sem and gotta myself a few decent grades. For that, I am grateful for the advice, motivation and encouragement showered by the people around me, especially mel, who always believe in me. Through saving, I began to inculcate a habit of asking myself if something is a want or a need. Many a times, impulsive purchases are halted in time before it reach the cashier. Thank god for that.

As always, I am just ranting on and whatever written are just random thoughts from myself. Gotta stop typing now. Going to finish the book tonight: Letters to Sam. Great one!