What a depressing day it was yesterday. Taking the bus while transcending back to the real world from the slumber land may result in surprises. Surprise came. Dropped my precious wallet on the bus. Depressing. It was a gift from mel and I dropped it on the bus. Together with the depression went our photos too. Depressing. there went all my cards and receipts.
Immediately, I called up BM and hougang interchange to inform them about the missing wallet. I've made umpteen calls to them. The operator must have been irritated. Despite being depressed, there was an angel within me that I will find my wallet pretty soon. I seems to be able to see the wallet coming back to me.
but...
Depression = no mood for anything. Yes i know that Event + Response = Outcome but i cant help feeling disappointed with myself. I know that I should have taken it positively but it feels nothing but miserable. These negative anchors are so hard to remove.
[Mixed thoughts]
Afternoon came. I received a letter from DBS; with 2 debit cards enclosed inside the envelope. I thought to myself - this might be a sign of blessing coming my way. Shit! It was not; It was 2 sample cards asking me to sign up for their program. Feeling cheated, the depressing day went on.
Night came. Maybe I should start to make my way to the police station to lodge a report on the missing wallet. I Procrastinated. Procrastination kills efficiency. This time around was an exception.
'Tok Tok', my heart was pounding as I made my way to the door. I opened and there stood a stranger with my WALLET! ARRRRRRR! This kind soul brought my wallet back to me, to my doorstep. I stood there in shock. All I could only utter was a simple thank you. There was so much that I wanted to do to appreciate that person for bringing the wallet back to me. But I could only say Thank You. She left after handing the wallet to me and asked me to check if anything was missing. I regretted not asking for her name. Excitedly, I called mel to tell her about it. After sharing my joy with her, I decided to look for the lady who returned the wallet to me. I ran down to the market and looking fanatically for her (she stayed 2 blocks away from me). I dunno why i did that and if i see her, I dunno what to say either. But I just want to thank her properly. Sadly, I cant find her.
This incident has reinforced in me the beauty of paying it forward. This lady did her good deed without asking for anything in return. And I cant thank her enough. Thus, I have decided that rather than feeling sad about not thanking her enough, I should
pay it forward instead.
Pay it forward
