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1 week of holidays zoomed past just like that. The hour hand just gotta make another 36 revolutions and I will be back in school. Nevermind about that, since we cannot make the hour hand tick to the other direction.
2 incidents happened recently that make me ponder about what am I currently doing with my life? Am I living it to the fullest or am I just allowing the days to pass by without spending every minute of it wisely and fruitfully.
Been ill for the past one month. Started when I ran the half marathon with a serious flu. Nights of fever and chills ensue shortly after. It became a month of regular visits to the doc, blood tests and consumption of paracetamol as though they are a staple. Never in my life have I ever consumed so many tablets of panadols. Goes the panadols and comes the antibiotics to battle against the micro organisms inside my body. Will be seeing the specialist soon to see what's wrong within my body. (Thanks to Colin and Jessica for your professional medical advice. It did help to allay some of my fears.) And that's number one!
The next incident came unexpectedly. One of my relatives was diagnosed with cancer and it is in her final stage. Com'on, she is just 41! But I guess nothing is fair in this life. As the saying goes, We cannot change the direction of the wind but we can adjust our sails. We will just have to face this bravely and positively together. Negativity will just fuel the growth of the cancerous cells.
These two incidents have sent a wake up call to me. Am I living my life as if it is the last? I guess I have not. If Buddha is to take away my life now, I will have much much much much regrets. And thus Yong kok you have to start to live your life as if it is the last few days of your life. I have to be more kind and understanding to people around me, especially those who are close to me. My parents, my brother and Melissa. And also, I will also need to take more control of my life and stop being a phlegmatic. I am losing my confident self and going into a hibernation mode where anything goes. Need to get out of this mode!
Getting sleeply, apologies for ending this post abruptly. But who cares, it is my blog anyway. =P
2 incidents happened recently that make me ponder about what am I currently doing with my life? Am I living it to the fullest or am I just allowing the days to pass by without spending every minute of it wisely and fruitfully.
Been ill for the past one month. Started when I ran the half marathon with a serious flu. Nights of fever and chills ensue shortly after. It became a month of regular visits to the doc, blood tests and consumption of paracetamol as though they are a staple. Never in my life have I ever consumed so many tablets of panadols. Goes the panadols and comes the antibiotics to battle against the micro organisms inside my body. Will be seeing the specialist soon to see what's wrong within my body. (Thanks to Colin and Jessica for your professional medical advice. It did help to allay some of my fears.) And that's number one!
The next incident came unexpectedly. One of my relatives was diagnosed with cancer and it is in her final stage. Com'on, she is just 41! But I guess nothing is fair in this life. As the saying goes, We cannot change the direction of the wind but we can adjust our sails. We will just have to face this bravely and positively together. Negativity will just fuel the growth of the cancerous cells.
These two incidents have sent a wake up call to me. Am I living my life as if it is the last? I guess I have not. If Buddha is to take away my life now, I will have much much much much regrets. And thus Yong kok you have to start to live your life as if it is the last few days of your life. I have to be more kind and understanding to people around me, especially those who are close to me. My parents, my brother and Melissa. And also, I will also need to take more control of my life and stop being a phlegmatic. I am losing my confident self and going into a hibernation mode where anything goes. Need to get out of this mode!
Getting sleeply, apologies for ending this post abruptly. But who cares, it is my blog anyway. =P
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