Losing Focus... Regaining them

Had a talk with Melissa just now and realized that I had actually lost my focus for the last 6 weeks. From the previous entries, one will realize how much time is devoted to scouting and perhaps kayaking/AKLTG. This is of course, after some discussion with mel, done at the expense of one thing, my studies. Been lagging behind real bad for my studies. For those friends out there, yongkok will continue to study until he graduate in 3 years so there is no need to ask about why he is leaving school. =). This is another reason for working harder.

Last semester was a pretty smooth semester for me. Consistent effort and coupled with familiar topics covered during lectures during the 13 weeks made the semester a sweet one. Decent grades and thus leads to complacency which I am experiencing right now. This term is a different story all together. Unfamiliar topics with more weekly hours devoted to school curriculum. One thing that stuck to my mind during the conversation with Melissa. What have you studied for the past 6 weeks? Day in and day out is just all about scouting and it is taking a toll even for yourself. Let alone those juniors who may not be as strong as you do. It came to my realization (finally) that they have been entrusted with a lot of responsibilities in the venture unit and some of them are falling out along the way. Will reflect on this and see what can be done to moderate on their hours spent on scouting.

As I will be finishing up my degree, why not make it a good honors? Furthermore, I am funding my own studies. I will be doing injustice to myself for not performing up to par and also not practicing what I preach to the juniors. Painful sacrifices have to be made. And thus for my fellow coaching mates, million apologies as I will have to back out from the trip. I am really looking forward for the trip as I enjoyed training and exploring with you people. Just that my circumstances do not allow me too. Have Enjoy your trip and do send me the pictures!!! Painful it is but I guess it has to be done this way; it is my last chance to fight back for Mid Semester Test.

FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS!